I have been trying to do my best at piecing life together, making everything fit nicely into my idea of what I want and need in life. I then realized that the more I try to make everything fit so that it looks great from the outside, the worse it gets on the inside.
I do things because I am supposed to do them; some of these things I enjoy and others I feel obligated to do because I used to enjoy them or because it is the "right thing to do".
For the past week I have been working like crazy; I was out of town for a food show Sunday and Monday, and I am following that up with 5 - 11+ hour days. Is it really necessary that I am everywhere, or could the small parties get by without me? Do I really need to look at every single place setting to make sure I like the way that the napkin got put in the water glass?
My house is a mess (which is not surprising to hear, but it is worse then usual), laundry is piling up (my husband asked me to please do laundry or he was going out to buy new socks), the refrigerator is packed with to-go boxes because I haven't had time or felt like cooking, and every time I walk in the door of my house I just want to sleep so that I don't have to deal with it.
I love to do email surveys. I enjoy the rush of making extra money, the fact that I can get paid for doing something so simple, as well as all of the free stuff that comes in my email, but right now I have over 600 unread emails sitting there, staring at me, waiting for me to do something...anything, with them.
I started working a side job to keep my busy when Sean was out of town. I just answer phone calls for a company that places skin care orders. It is quick, easy, and best of all SIMPLE. There is no brain power involved, just read the words and type the answers. Too bad I can't even find the energy to sit in the office long enough to take a call or two.
My blog was put together as a way for me to talk, enjoy, get feed back, share experiences, and hopefully pass on tips on how to save some money and enjoy life while doing it. Now I feel like it is another job, one that I don't get paid for. I started with the shoe challenge and I loved it. I still wear a different pair of shoes every day (except yesterday and today because I have food show blisters that need to heal), but I just don't have the desire to take the picture, upload it, and right anything, even just a quick sentence. I was following along with MoneySavingMom.com's Weekly Organization. I was doing great, until everything else just got in the way.
Reading blogs is a great past-time for me. In fact reading of any kind. I love to learn new things, enjoy other people's ideas, and see what I can make work in my life. Now I have close to 100 unread posts in my "BlogLovin", as well as 2 books that are started, but have seen no progress for a few days, just sitting on my night stand.
A few years ago I decided to join "Big Brothers Big Sisters". I have a child that I am supposed to spend 1 hour a week with. Play games, go to the library, take to the zoo, anything, just spend time with him. It's been 3 weeks and I don't see a time in sight where I can even go get him to hang out.
Then came yesterday. I got amazing news from a friend. She is moving on to bigger and better things. She got a great opportunity to move out of state, a full-time job, and move in the right direction for her to be able to follow her dreams. I was speechless, so excited, and happy for her, I just didn't know what to do but hug her.
A few hours later it all hit me. I'm going to miss her like crazy. Who am I going to talk to everyday? Who is going to make me listen to the same song at least 5 times a day? Who is going to make me smile? Who is going to understand my need to eat every 5 minutes?
All of this started to make me realize that life is like a game of Jenga...
I do things because I am supposed to do them; some of these things I enjoy and others I feel obligated to do because I used to enjoy them or because it is the "right thing to do".
For the past week I have been working like crazy; I was out of town for a food show Sunday and Monday, and I am following that up with 5 - 11+ hour days. Is it really necessary that I am everywhere, or could the small parties get by without me? Do I really need to look at every single place setting to make sure I like the way that the napkin got put in the water glass?
My house is a mess (which is not surprising to hear, but it is worse then usual), laundry is piling up (my husband asked me to please do laundry or he was going out to buy new socks), the refrigerator is packed with to-go boxes because I haven't had time or felt like cooking, and every time I walk in the door of my house I just want to sleep so that I don't have to deal with it.
I love to do email surveys. I enjoy the rush of making extra money, the fact that I can get paid for doing something so simple, as well as all of the free stuff that comes in my email, but right now I have over 600 unread emails sitting there, staring at me, waiting for me to do something...anything, with them.
I started working a side job to keep my busy when Sean was out of town. I just answer phone calls for a company that places skin care orders. It is quick, easy, and best of all SIMPLE. There is no brain power involved, just read the words and type the answers. Too bad I can't even find the energy to sit in the office long enough to take a call or two.
My blog was put together as a way for me to talk, enjoy, get feed back, share experiences, and hopefully pass on tips on how to save some money and enjoy life while doing it. Now I feel like it is another job, one that I don't get paid for. I started with the shoe challenge and I loved it. I still wear a different pair of shoes every day (except yesterday and today because I have food show blisters that need to heal), but I just don't have the desire to take the picture, upload it, and right anything, even just a quick sentence. I was following along with MoneySavingMom.com's Weekly Organization. I was doing great, until everything else just got in the way.
Reading blogs is a great past-time for me. In fact reading of any kind. I love to learn new things, enjoy other people's ideas, and see what I can make work in my life. Now I have close to 100 unread posts in my "BlogLovin", as well as 2 books that are started, but have seen no progress for a few days, just sitting on my night stand.
A few years ago I decided to join "Big Brothers Big Sisters". I have a child that I am supposed to spend 1 hour a week with. Play games, go to the library, take to the zoo, anything, just spend time with him. It's been 3 weeks and I don't see a time in sight where I can even go get him to hang out.
Then came yesterday. I got amazing news from a friend. She is moving on to bigger and better things. She got a great opportunity to move out of state, a full-time job, and move in the right direction for her to be able to follow her dreams. I was speechless, so excited, and happy for her, I just didn't know what to do but hug her.
A few hours later it all hit me. I'm going to miss her like crazy. Who am I going to talk to everyday? Who is going to make me listen to the same song at least 5 times a day? Who is going to make me smile? Who is going to understand my need to eat every 5 minutes?
All of this started to make me realize that life is like a game of Jenga...
Everything starts off in neat rows, things lined up with your life ahead of you. Then as you continue to grow you have to move things around and create new balances in life. Every once in a while the top of the pile falls off, but you don't have to start over, you just have to pick up some of the pieces and re-arrange them so that they stand up again.
I have my amazing husband, who loves in spite of everything that I do (or don't do). He tells me I am one of a kind, and laughs with me (not at me) in everything we do together, and he knows the way out of the dog house.
I will still have my awesome friend, just a few hours away. That's what technology is for though. Between cell phones and laptops we can still talk all the time.
I have a great, supportive family. They stand up for me, they push me forward, and they love me unconditionally.
I have a wonderful job. It challenges me, gives me interaction, and security. I am surrounded by people that make me laugh, and know that sometimes I just like to be the boss and they let me take charge.
On top of all of these things I have the 3 most beautiful, cuddly kitties that anyone could ask for. They wait for me by the door until I get home, they purr me to sleep, they help me do all of my chores (Miley's favorite is changing the bed sheets!), and best of all....they help push around the Jenga pieces until I am ready to start building again.
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